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Finally an update.

I'll cut straight to the point.

Special long ranting about

One Piece new chapters:

First, Luffy was already that close to the execution platform but then Garp faced him. It was epic! grandpa vs. grandson. and Luffy didn't hold back this time. it was cool that Garp missed on purpose cause he just couldn't do it. he is after all both of their grandpa.

And then and then and then.. Luffy made it to Ace and almost unlocked the handcuffs but then that asshole Kizaru broke the key!! fuck him! he should die!! but luckily Mr.3 was there and made a wax key. and Sengoku went into that crazy giant-mode of his and destroyed the platform. Buuut, the end was super sweet and epic cool!!! Ace was free and even saved Luffy. EPIC i tell ya!

And the next chapter begins even better. I swear i screamed like the crazy fangirl i am. i was SO happy.

The D brothers were back in business and kicking some ass. they were smiling and joking like usual. and it looked like everything was going to be okay again.

I mean look at them:

And then WB sacrificed himself to save his whole crew by staying behind and letting everyone else escape. That was very noble of him. and an honourable death considering that he didn't have much time left anyway. and man, that guy really has some power. he almost destroyed the whole island.

And that's when everything went downhill.

Akainu, that m@therf@cker, just had to ruin everything and start saying all that crap about WB. Of course it pissed Ace off so much that he just had to face him. if it wouldn't have been for that, things could have gone differently.

The next thing you know he was going to attack Luffy with that fcking lava of his and kill him but the ever loving brother that Ace was, he of course saved him....by taking the hit himself.

I just ended up in a total shock when that huge fist went through him. and so were everyone else, especially Luffy. And the Vivre card, oh god!! it started burning up rapidly. i lost my breath. and it ended like that. and i almost went mad. so i went to the discussion forum and checked out what the others thought of this development.

Many were hopeful that it somehow could be fixed and that the Vivre card hadn't burned up completely yet giving more hope. and also that he was a Logia user after all, so maybe it somehow didn't effect him fatally.

Today was the grim day when the new chapter came out and every hope that had been still kept was lost. the name of the title was: "The death of Portgas D Ace"

I panicked. i honestly panicked. how could that be?!? Oda-sensei had never officially killed a person in all the 573 chapters of One Piece and now this?! and an important, loved character to top that?? WHY?!? i mean i think i can understand somewhat the reason for that but still, why?! Everyone was hoping that now they would finally get their well deserved escape and freedom. because, you know, now all those sacrifices were for nothing. (i.e. Oars junior, WB, all the countless crew members and even Moby Dick was destroyed..sort of etc.)

And when i read the chapter i cried. i weeped like a little child. it was just that heartbreaking. (the last time i cried in OP was when i watched the anime episode where they said goodbye to Merry Go. and that was sad. but nothing compared to this.)

They must kill Akainu! he can not stay alive after this. he must pay with his own painful death. though i wonder who can take him out. but somebody just has to. I'm glad Jimbei at least stopped him. and the part where Sengoku himself had to restrain Garp so he wouldn't single-handedly kill him.

And then Ace's 'the speech of a dying man'. yet again, it was simply heart shattering. all his life he wondered if he really should have been born, and all the cruel things everyone said to him(just by being the son of Roger). he didn't deserve any of that. but he had Garp and Luffy and WB and in the end he had no regrets about how he lived his life. then they show WB crying for him. SAD!

and his final thoughts were: "Old man, all you guys...and Luffy...Even though I've been good for nothing my whole life..Even though I carry the blood of a demon within me.......You guys still loved me..Thank you so much!!!" he cries and then smiles sincerely....and..and..and..then he dies with a smile on his face.

Luffy lost it then. it's hard to describe his reaction. but the the emotions were perfectly forwarded.

This was one of the best and saddest death scenes I have seen. (one other being that of Lulu from Code Geass. Once again i cried when that happened. and mother thought i was weird when she found me weeping)

So now all i can think is what the next chapter will hold. Because i really wonder what will happen to Luffy. I don't think he will bounce back to his happy-go-lucky self for a long time after this. and maybe there will remain a darker side to him now. and i totally want his crew to come back together and comfort him. i seriously can't imagine what's gonna happen now. it's all beyond me.

(I also hope that Ace will get a real and honourable funeral. he deserves that more than anything.) I still can't believe it. i think i'm in denial again.

Well, i finally got that out of my system. and i really needed it.

My eyes are still puffy. and i feel horribly depressed.

So, i still need to read the new chappy of Naruto and Bleach and other stuff.

I still want to rant about other mangas too but i'll leave that for another time. right now i'm exhausted. (and i certainly want to rant about Negima)

R.I.P

Portgas D. Ace

(Gol D. Ace)

The D brothers

When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car.

1/21/10

(found this when i was looking through my posts)

I've been so so dead lately. it's horrible.

But now I came back...as a zombie! (imma eat you brainzz)

I have a huge bruise on my knee. it's purpely. the computer hit me. :'(

(domestic violence much?)

and i also hit my head. again. the walls in my home just don't seem to like me.

I'm actually really hungry but the bed is so cozy and i really don't feel like getting up yet. oh and by the way..school is being a real bitch so i stayed home today. besides, it's really cold outside.

I want summer! *whines like a little kid*

I ordered some new mangas a while ago. (ten volumes of Negima and seventeen of One Piece)

So, i got, like the day before yesterday, a message saying my books finally arrived. well, 16 of them did at least. but they didn't send me an email so i could actually pay for them. I've been waiting for two days already. what's up with that?? Now i have to wait like until the next week to get them. this really sucks!! i really looked forward to it.

And i have to wait for the other 11 volumes(of One Piece) for about four months. then they'll be out and shipped to me. i hate waiting. but it was the only chance. (i could have of course ordered all the 50 volumes in german and gotten them way earlier, but it's just that most of my mangas are in german and i have so few in english. aaand the english translation is way better.)

I could really use a butler right now. Like Alfred from Batman or .... from VK. Of course, mine would have to be young. and sexy. and without a shirt.....I'm just saying.

Because, you know, wouldn't you want one of those? you can't really tell me you haven't thought about that. seriously, don't lie to me. or i will send Pedobear after you. -enter serious face here-

So anyway, i've been around the internet for the past few days, lurking around like the usual obsessed fangirl i am. reading....stuff. hot stuff. i mean really hot stuff. mainly about my OTP. they're just so much luuuvv. and it's actually really hard to find good stories where they are not being OOC. very few authors can pull that off, you know. but the ones i have found so far are just heavenly! I recently finished a good story and i was almost gonna cry because it was the last chapter and it was so good and i wanted more and the ending was like so bittersweet. i remember how i used to click on the story every day to see if there was a new chap. and when there was but i had to go to school it was pure madness and torture to sit in class and wait 'til the the lessons finally ended.

And with every new chapter i was so hyper happy. i actually had this giddy feeling inside. and then i read it at least two times through and went back to the best parts and read them again and again. the cliffhangers were the most torturing. but when the last chap was finally out i didn't touch it for at least two days because i just wasn't ready to see the ending (mainly because i knew it wasn't going to be a H.E.A. ending where everything got tied together) and say goodbye.

Anyway, besides that story there is one more that is my all-time-favorite.(i even have the story in my phone so i could read it any time i want) The lovely fact is that they are both written by the same author. i really really hope she will soon write something more, because her work is absolutely amazing.

So yeah, now you know one of the things that always, i mean ALWAYS makes me feel better when i'm feeling down.

Pedobear is watching you

Random facts about Kat Z:

*a big hypocrite

*uses (and likes) sarcasm 24/7

*likes black humor (& humor that no one else understands)

*calls her brain Brian

*when alone she talks to herself aloud. a lot

*thinks in english. sometimes in german (actual mother tongue is estonian)

*has a huge ego

*sings under the shower all the time

*dancemaniac. when in the mood. and alone

*huge hand fetish

*music addict. listens to music even when asleep

*likes to annoy people

*eats weird stuff

*has dreams about dead people

*thinks someone is watching her all the time (paranoid much?)

*lives in her own bubble

*hates it when being called small but uses it as an advantage when needed

*doesn't listen in class. ever

*like to argue & disagree

*swears too much

*seriously hyper when happy

*wannabe insomniac

*thinks Godzilla is her snuggle puppy

*makes fun of everything & everyone

*has no idea what she is doing

*thinks Karma is a bitch

*likes it when her voice is gone, then she doesn't have to talk to anyone

*obsessed fangirl

*gets distracted very easily

*likes fever

*has a love/hate relationship with her hair

*thinks love is rocket science

*hates children

*smiles very randomly

*SasuNaru is OTP

*sleeps like a bear