When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car.

1/21/10

(found this when i was looking through my posts)

I've been so so dead lately. it's horrible.

But now I came back...as a zombie! (imma eat you brainzz)

I have a huge bruise on my knee. it's purpely. the computer hit me. :'(

(domestic violence much?)

and i also hit my head. again. the walls in my home just don't seem to like me.

I'm actually really hungry but the bed is so cozy and i really don't feel like getting up yet. oh and by the way..school is being a real bitch so i stayed home today. besides, it's really cold outside.

I want summer! *whines like a little kid*

I ordered some new mangas a while ago. (ten volumes of Negima and seventeen of One Piece)

So, i got, like the day before yesterday, a message saying my books finally arrived. well, 16 of them did at least. but they didn't send me an email so i could actually pay for them. I've been waiting for two days already. what's up with that?? Now i have to wait like until the next week to get them. this really sucks!! i really looked forward to it.

And i have to wait for the other 11 volumes(of One Piece) for about four months. then they'll be out and shipped to me. i hate waiting. but it was the only chance. (i could have of course ordered all the 50 volumes in german and gotten them way earlier, but it's just that most of my mangas are in german and i have so few in english. aaand the english translation is way better.)

I could really use a butler right now. Like Alfred from Batman or .... from VK. Of course, mine would have to be young. and sexy. and without a shirt.....I'm just saying.

Because, you know, wouldn't you want one of those? you can't really tell me you haven't thought about that. seriously, don't lie to me. or i will send Pedobear after you. -enter serious face here-

So anyway, i've been around the internet for the past few days, lurking around like the usual obsessed fangirl i am. reading....stuff. hot stuff. i mean really hot stuff. mainly about my OTP. they're just so much luuuvv. and it's actually really hard to find good stories where they are not being OOC. very few authors can pull that off, you know. but the ones i have found so far are just heavenly! I recently finished a good story and i was almost gonna cry because it was the last chapter and it was so good and i wanted more and the ending was like so bittersweet. i remember how i used to click on the story every day to see if there was a new chap. and when there was but i had to go to school it was pure madness and torture to sit in class and wait 'til the the lessons finally ended.

And with every new chapter i was so hyper happy. i actually had this giddy feeling inside. and then i read it at least two times through and went back to the best parts and read them again and again. the cliffhangers were the most torturing. but when the last chap was finally out i didn't touch it for at least two days because i just wasn't ready to see the ending (mainly because i knew it wasn't going to be a H.E.A. ending where everything got tied together) and say goodbye.

Anyway, besides that story there is one more that is my all-time-favorite.(i even have the story in my phone so i could read it any time i want) The lovely fact is that they are both written by the same author. i really really hope she will soon write something more, because her work is absolutely amazing.

So yeah, now you know one of the things that always, i mean ALWAYS makes me feel better when i'm feeling down.