When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car.

1/21/10

(found this when i was looking through my posts)

I've been so so dead lately. it's horrible.

But now I came back...as a zombie! (imma eat you brainzz)

I have a huge bruise on my knee. it's purpely. the computer hit me. :'(

(domestic violence much?)

and i also hit my head. again. the walls in my home just don't seem to like me.

I'm actually really hungry but the bed is so cozy and i really don't feel like getting up yet. oh and by the way..school is being a real bitch so i stayed home today. besides, it's really cold outside.

I want summer! *whines like a little kid*

I ordered some new mangas a while ago. (ten volumes of Negima and seventeen of One Piece)

So, i got, like the day before yesterday, a message saying my books finally arrived. well, 16 of them did at least. but they didn't send me an email so i could actually pay for them. I've been waiting for two days already. what's up with that?? Now i have to wait like until the next week to get them. this really sucks!! i really looked forward to it.

And i have to wait for the other 11 volumes(of One Piece) for about four months. then they'll be out and shipped to me. i hate waiting. but it was the only chance. (i could have of course ordered all the 50 volumes in german and gotten them way earlier, but it's just that most of my mangas are in german and i have so few in english. aaand the english translation is way better.)

I could really use a butler right now. Like Alfred from Batman or .... from VK. Of course, mine would have to be young. and sexy. and without a shirt.....I'm just saying.

Because, you know, wouldn't you want one of those? you can't really tell me you haven't thought about that. seriously, don't lie to me. or i will send Pedobear after you. -enter serious face here-

So anyway, i've been around the internet for the past few days, lurking around like the usual obsessed fangirl i am. reading....stuff. hot stuff. i mean really hot stuff. mainly about my OTP. they're just so much luuuvv. and it's actually really hard to find good stories where they are not being OOC. very few authors can pull that off, you know. but the ones i have found so far are just heavenly! I recently finished a good story and i was almost gonna cry because it was the last chapter and it was so good and i wanted more and the ending was like so bittersweet. i remember how i used to click on the story every day to see if there was a new chap. and when there was but i had to go to school it was pure madness and torture to sit in class and wait 'til the the lessons finally ended.

And with every new chapter i was so hyper happy. i actually had this giddy feeling inside. and then i read it at least two times through and went back to the best parts and read them again and again. the cliffhangers were the most torturing. but when the last chap was finally out i didn't touch it for at least two days because i just wasn't ready to see the ending (mainly because i knew it wasn't going to be a H.E.A. ending where everything got tied together) and say goodbye.

Anyway, besides that story there is one more that is my all-time-favorite.(i even have the story in my phone so i could read it any time i want) The lovely fact is that they are both written by the same author. i really really hope she will soon write something more, because her work is absolutely amazing.

So yeah, now you know one of the things that always, i mean ALWAYS makes me feel better when i'm feeling down.

Pedobear is watching you

Random facts about Kat Z:

*a big hypocrite

*uses (and likes) sarcasm 24/7

*likes black humor (& humor that no one else understands)

*calls her brain Brian

*when alone she talks to herself aloud. a lot

*thinks in english. sometimes in german (actual mother tongue is estonian)

*has a huge ego

*sings under the shower all the time

*dancemaniac. when in the mood. and alone

*huge hand fetish

*music addict. listens to music even when asleep

*likes to annoy people

*eats weird stuff

*has dreams about dead people

*thinks someone is watching her all the time (paranoid much?)

*lives in her own bubble

*hates it when being called small but uses it as an advantage when needed

*doesn't listen in class. ever

*like to argue & disagree

*swears too much

*seriously hyper when happy

*wannabe insomniac

*thinks Godzilla is her snuggle puppy

*makes fun of everything & everyone

*has no idea what she is doing

*thinks Karma is a bitch

*likes it when her voice is gone, then she doesn't have to talk to anyone

*obsessed fangirl

*gets distracted very easily

*likes fever

*has a love/hate relationship with her hair

*thinks love is rocket science

*hates children

*smiles very randomly

*SasuNaru is OTP

*sleeps like a bear

I didn't know Lady Gaga wanted to ride on Edward's disco stick..

oh my, oh my...

what can i say, i was eehmmm... away. i have a life too you know, even though you probably don't believe me.

Anyway, i had a whole free week from school to relax and enjoy life...instead i was working my ass off. man, i just know how to live life...not. i was supposed to party and have fun, but never mind that now.

I'm gonna scream my head off now.. because of the new chapters this week.

One Piece: whut the buck?! WB was stabbed? the hell?! whyyyy did one of the pirates who was fighting with him all of a sudden turn against him??? because, you know like he and they and...oohhhhhhhhhh...i think i get it now. holy crap!! (i probably got it wrong anyway, but who cares)

Everyone was so shocked! and fuuuuuuuck! Luffy or someone needs to save Ace already! i can't take this suspense anymore! with every chapter i'm like pulling my hair out in frustration and anger. aarrrgghhh!! (i won't have any hair left like that, damn)

Naruto: ..............I could only laugh at that chapter. I mean, Sakura's confession?! that was the worst confession in the history of confessions like EVER!!! I mean, yeah, she only did it to ease the burden Naruto had and shit like that but jeeeeez!!! she needs some acting lessons or something. could she actually be any more fail than that? But luckily Naruto is way smarter than that, obviously Sakura didn't think that, and pushed her away. yesshh, the forehead bitch got pwned...again. She needs to grow up already and start being useful for real. So, the best part of the chapter was when Naruto said: "I hate people who lie to themselves!" It was perfect! thumbs up for that. sakura was like D: *mouth hanging open*

so much for your brilliant plan! next time let people with brains come up with the plan, okey?

Now i'm done bashing the useless biatch! (what can i say, i just don't like her..at all! never did, never will!) the end!

TsubasaRC: well, it finally ended. the ending was...well, weird. Not what i was looking forward to but that is just typical.

Vampire Knight: I'm only gonna say this: every time i check the next chapter i just feel nauseous. that's what i think of this manga. I actually liked the beginning and the artwork is fabulous so i even bought 2 volumes, but that was mostly it. then it just went downhill for me. (PS! I hate Yuuki and Kaname! they suck!! ..no, not in that meaning. :D)

hohoho!! it's like 2 AM in here and i'm watching GODZILLAAA!! he's such a cute snuggle puppy! i'd like him as my pet. we would have soooo much fun terrorizing people and cities. *dreams about puppy godzilla* sigh

Damn those stupid people, firing at my cute little puppy. i hate them! seriously, big monster dinosaurs have feelings too, you know.

my dog is crazy! (what else is new?)

he's horny as hell! hohoho! 8D yes, i just said that, you heard me right!

he's biting me, holy crap!!! someone save me, he's fucking nuts!

he would hump anything, trust me! when he was little, he humped my Bunny (stuffed animal)

Bunny still goes to therapy because of the nightmare! poor Bun-Bun! D':

well, i'm out of news.

i'll go and run away from my psycho dog now!

until next time...

I'm not calling you gay, I'm just saying that you two make The Tower of Pisa look straight...

Hola!

I'm back!

Maaan, i was gone for so long. i'm laaaaame. (pronounciation: leiiiiiiiiim...in a sing-song voice)

I luuuuuuuv my Gorillaz album. it's superb!

i just can't stop listening to it.

if i had a car and i could drive it this would be my car music.

But also Dido's album Life For Rent

Yesterday i was crazy. (what else is new)

In the morning my head exploded with the most insane thoughts and conversations (yesh, i have conversations in my head with....no one particular)

And in school i was like..totally not paying any attention. and i left half of my books at home so i was like staring at space. i was supposed to ask the teacher for a new book but i kinda missed the chance and then i just shrugged and wrote crack instead. it was fun. the teacher never noticed. luckyyy. in the next lesson i had the same problem but then i doodled in my notebook. i remembered the hilarious crack i read the day before and i was trying, with all my might, to not burst into a manic laughter.

Yesterday night i made a chocolate cake. it was crazy fun. and it took me way longer than it should have. because i laughed and danced and listened to crazy music and was too hyper and texted Katu. all at the same time.

I brought some to school so my friends could have a taste of my crappy cooking. well, they thought it was okey, which made me insanely happy. after school Massu came over and ate half of my cake. :D glad she likes it. not to mention my cousin who is still banging on my door to get some more of that cake. i created an addict. haha.

and the cake only cost me my whole weeks worth of money.

mother said that if i fail school i could become a cook. tnx mom.

My neck hurts. and i'm frickin' sleepy. and cold. and hungry. and i whine too much. and i don't care what you think cause it's my blog. haha!

manga update(because it amuses me):

There's gonna be One Piece this week! oh boy, oh boy!! It's gonna be EPIC!!

Also, Naruto's new chapter made me laugh so hard! Hilarious!! Sasugay is sooo FAIL!!! and Naruto should have been there. and oh my god Gaara shed a tear! i think it's the end of the world! and he had one of his "i-was-in-the-darkness-once-too" speech. and i can't get over the thought that he looks like a wannabe Marilyn Manson. and for pete's sake, he has no eyebrows!! did he lose a bet or something?? (i know he never had them to begin with but seriously! the hell?!)

XxxHolic has reached another level of low. Watanuki is a very fail/lame wannabe Yuuko! i almost feel sorry for him. almost.

failfailfailfail. i like that word.

The farewell-party for my uncle and cousin was hilarious. i laughed 'til it hurt and i had tears in my eyes. aaaand yeah, at some point it was like the summer party at Katu all over again. He was like that horny bastard. only he was older and he had a wife. and a child. and he was naked a lot. and when i mean a lot i mean a LOT! also there was some gay-talk. ah yeah, good times.

okey, i'm out of news. they're all gone.

i need to go buy some ketchup.

...yeah.

pedobear kidnapped Brian.

The End!

you're the hottest thing since sunburn

I know, i know, lame title, but i was reading this fanfic about lame pick-up lines and i totally like that one. :D:D

hihihi...i sure like talking about random stuff. :)

and trust me, this entry is going to be loooooong! (a warning, just in case)

but what does it matter to me, i'm doing this for my own amusement anyway. :D

Sooo, i was looking through my usual bunch of manga chapters.

they're one of the reasons i like weekends so very much and i have absolutely no patience to wait for them. when i go to the page and see there's a new chapter(doesn't even matter much which series it is, as long as it's one of my absolute favorites) i squeel like the obsessed fangirl i am and then everyone can practically see me radiating happiness. ah, yes, being a fangirl is a blessing as well as a curse.

Anyway, now i'm gonna share some of my thoughts about a few series' new chapters (because i can, thank you very much!).

hmm...let's start with..ahh, yes, my most favorite manga in the whole world- One Piece!

let me just say i LOVE IT!!!! no kidding. it's brilliant. absolutely fantastic. Oda-sensei is a genius.

okey, latest chapters: going back in time a little. i can honestly say, it was a huge shock for me to find out that Roger was Ace's father. i mean yeah, it was never actually confirmed but i thought Dragon was his old man. my reaction to that was that my mouth hung open for about 10 minutes until i finally recovered, well not completely. the shock actually lasted for weeks and i was in denial. it was kind of sad to think that Ace and Luffy aren't real brothers(not that that matters to them). and of course Luffy knew all about it. that's good to know. by the way, Ace's mother was a kick-ass woman!

moving on. i knew Whitebeard would go to Ace's rescue, i never once doubted him. but seriously, Luffy should arrive faster to Marinford, he's missing out all the action. Also, it makes me so frustrated that all the crew is so scattered. they're so far away from each other and it kinda makes me wonder how they'll get back together.(i hope Thousand Sunny is still safe)

and now there's this epic war going on. oh, how will it end??? i really hope they beat the marines, because i fricking hate them!! escpecially Kizaru and Sengoku. not to mention the Shichibukai. Kuma is an ASS!! and i hate Flamingo and that shadow devil(can't remember his name). the only ones who are okey are Mihawk(hothothot) and Hancock.

i swear, if anything happens to Ace i'm going to cry and scream and hate Oda-sensei. (a little overdoing it. but only a little)

I also looooove D.gray-man, but things are pretty fucked up with that. I mean first there was this crazy problem which made the series go on hiatus for months. it was a horror! and now it finally makes a glorious comeback with an epic 50 page chapter buuuuut (there's always this awful but) then they say, that we have to wait for the next chapter another few months and then it will become a monthly series instead of weekly. that's pure torture!!!

and although i was happy to finally see the new chapter,(especially the cover for the chapter which like made me drool all over my computer...so sexy!!) things are just getting so bad in there. i mean what the hell, another Noah awakened?! and that one is like some mega strong one too and there are just so many of them and even though Kanda killed Skin his place is still going to be filled again. how fucked up is that?!? it's like they should just give up right there, right then and not even bother fighting on. they're chance of winning the war is getting closer to zero more and more. and i know i'm being very negative and angsty right now but i just can't help it. Hoshino-sensei makes things so complicated.

About Negima. well i like how things are going there. Kotarou-kun and Natsumi finally made a pactio.(took them long enough) Fei Ku has one too and Chachamaru is still to go. Rakan is still fighting with Fate. i don't like that governor-general Kurt, he's bound to make things more difficult.

and i just can't get over the fact that Negi is kind of a prince and her parents are fricking cool! (well, yeah, Asuna is an actual princess, but that doesn't matter to me) and that reminds me, when are they finally going to figure out that the Asuna they have with them is an imposter? (i bet, Negi is going to make her completely fall in love with him so she changes back automatically. that would be funny). aaand, Kota-chan is soooooo cute when he's not being his sexy-self. of course, he's even more of a hunk when he's in his mature form.*drools again*

Very shortly about Naruto. well, Sasuke is being the usual bastard he always is and thinks he can beat them all. and he's being consumed by rage and hatred. what else is new? i hope he kills Danzou though. oh, and Naruto and Madara are going to have a nice little chat. how lovely.

I'm not even going to talk about Tsubasa. that series lost it's value a very long time ago. the plot is going nowhere, they're only going in circles all the time. the same with XxxHolic.

okey, i think i'm done with the rambling for now. i look at the window and whaddya know, it's already morning and i have to get ready for my first day in school. (worst nightmare ever!)

oops, i forgot to go to sleep. i knew i was supposed to do something. oh well, never mind.

coming up with funny titles is harder than i thought

I'm back again! 8D

It's sunny today. waoo! but it's fricking windy. i hate windy days. especially because i have a fringe and yeah when i finally get inside my hair is a mess. sucks!

oh yessss!! Miami Ink is on!

Ami James and Yoji Harada...yummmm, do want! *drools* :D

i can't wait 'til i get my own tattoo.

i slept the whole day away today. enjoying my cosy bed (where i have slept like only 10 times, maybe, during the whole summer) and like the last free day i have before school starts. and it indeed starts like tomorrow already. i'm flipping out!!!! *hyperventilates*

omg!! i can't believe what just happened to me. two people(one was like ooold, the other one was a little younger) came to my door and i was like, hmm, what could they possibly want, and then they said: "hello we're here to talk about god."

.....and i wanted to slam the door on their faces immediately. XD

i mean seriously, do they really think i'm one of those weak-minded people who fall for that crap??!

and they like totally spoke with those angelic voices and wanted to further discuss about god in my home and even showed me some book that had all the answers yada yada yada...

actually, i was like totally trying not to laugh at them. it was hillarious really.

okey, that's it for my ramblings....for now. :D *laughs like a maniac*

heyy, i'm smart enough to know i'm dumb

randomness continues! :D

raining again. at some point there was thunder too which of course i enjoyed very much.

then finally...sun! but that didn't last for long. the usual.

Buuuut, i got to see a pretty rainbow that reminded me of a very sarcastic joke from one of my very sarcastic sounding stories.

("you really thought i was happy 24/7?"

"yes. well, more like happy-go-lucky on a rainbow with a flowery pony or something like that" ...i like sarcastic jokes)

anyway, that aside, i thought that tonight i might actually take up something challenging. as in, i'm going to cook something special. and then i'll have dinner...with myself.

omg!! Family Guy is on!! oh boy, oh boy. i can so easily be distracted. i must go watch, right now! i'll be back. :D:D